2010

A new years has begin ... indeed time passes very fast...
remember how slim i was few years back ... now i just cant seem to kick off the extra kilo.
was on leave these few day .. because my dearesr is in P1 this year ..
so as a mother , i am equally excited...
but i think he really grow up already ...
seeing him carrying a big school bag , hop on to the bus etc..
seeing him buying his lunch and trying to eat fast..
and after school care ..
yesterday when he came home , he got endless things to tell me...
it's really interesting ...
wish him all the best in the new enviroment .
keep it up son.

Life is so unpredictable !

Today is day 3 of my tour...everything was smooth...
but receive a bad news from singapore...
my college pass away this afternoon..
she is only 40+ and always a healthy , cheerfull and happily married woman.
just one month plus she was admitted to hospital ... she say tummy fill
with water and after that she never return to office as she was on
mc for 2 weeks and after that unpaid leave...
suddenly got the news that she pass away..
we been working together for +- 6 years.. although she is not my best friend
at work but still we some many years together...got feeling...
tears down and i really can't talk to anyone about it because i knew i will cry.
and it's no good because i am on tour lead...
i tell myself i have to be strong and do a good job
because this is her order...
life is really really short...can everyone pls treasure everybody
that is around us..even if they hurt us before...
i believe there is no forever enermy...
Ms Ong ...rest in peace !
I will remember your laughter and your cheerfulness ...

I am back !!!

Finally i am back to writing my blog...
not sure if there are still people reading my blog but this is not
the main issue...
to me writing my blog is just like my hobby ...
Why am i so free to blog today ...
reason is simple...i am away on a tour lead...
now in my hotel room doing nothing till afternoon...
so i blog...
Now in port klang..really nothing much here...
my job...everything was fine.. came to know a group of 2 very nice coll..
who never fail to brighten my days...
kid.. my boy going P1 next year..i guess i am more excited then him..
i think i did not leave out anything..school books , bag , water bottle etc...
just looking forwward to the first day of school..
and now boy is getting very sensible..talk like an adult..
love him more as days goes by!
family .. nothing much has change..still as messy...
hoping one day he will be more sensible...

feeling rotten !

Yesterday i feel really rotten @ work...
have been in the company for almost 8 months...
putting in so much effort to do those project but end up
the management say want to park both my korea product to her ...
reason because counter was told not to sell my program and now the management
wants to park the project in her care to force her to sell...
but to me is , is the management trying to encourage this kind of behaviour in the office, does it means they can cont to boycott any program and end up the program will go to their fav planner ? i mean i respect management whatever decision but at the same time i feel disappointed , rotten and i feel they fail me as a planner , they did not consider our feelings...it just like giving birth to a baby and now people want to take the baby away from you...i feel like a failure who is not able to protect my staffs effort , my own project...and how will the staff respect me ?
and she will not take care of my project....
so i decided to voice out to the management how i really feel and end up i protected my project but i am already very hurt. i dont know when will they want to take it away from me again...actually it also sound stupid...if they take away this project which means i will not need to ot...but i feel i go this far, i can't just stop here...i can't , i got too many people to answer to ...my land operator , my customer that has booked the tour and my staffs...

Love !

What is love ?
How deep can a person love be ?
To love someone unconditional, is it healthy ?
To love someone but end up getting yourself very hurt , is it normal ?
How mercy can a person be ?

Love this song !!! 我不难过

我不难过 Lyrics
作词：杨明学　作曲：李偲菘　编曲：Kenn C.

又站在你家的门口　我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候　还能多久

终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手　但我已不在　你心中

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有　陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过　别太伤痛
我不难过　这不算什么　只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂

就让我走　让我开始享受自由
回忆很多　你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱　你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞　这会是我　最后的宽容

抱紧我　再抱紧我
这一份感动　请你让我留在胸口
别再说　是你的错
爱到了尽头　是非对错就让它随风
忘了所有　过得比你快活

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有　陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过　别太伤痛
我不难过　这不算什么　只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂

不要再说　或许这是最好的结果
现在分手　总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手　离开你左右
我向前走　这会是我　真正的解脱

19nov09

Have not been blogging for the pass few months...reason: getting tired of my own blog and my own life...
everything seems to be repeating over and over again...
giving me hope and pushing me all the way down again and giving me hope again...
i believe he is not going to change.
but at the same time , there's no action that i wan to do...
search me...not even sure what am i doing myself...
currently i am in desaru ..leading a group but home matter is in a mess...
the worse is i cant cry...
and the thing that i am now looking forward to is , boy going to P1 next year...
not sure what to blog about...i only want to sigh sigh sigh...
anyway i bought this upon myself...no body to blame...